im not sure that i believe in reality

I just got done dancing by myself in the dark. Hardwood floors, boxers, Tom Waits (not Bruce Springsteen), and only two drinks in. For once, i'm happy. I've never been too good at having happy thoughts or at least being happy about where my life was or where it wasn't. I saw the girl I love tonight, and that's all I really need. I'll fall asleep early tonight, on my right side, sucking my thumb in my bare bones bedroom while Max Richter performs the images of heaven, but not before my fingers bleed to death in this notebook. I haven't written much lately, because i've been busy and I haven't been drunk. Instead i've been getting inspired and hoarding all of my energy that would usually be spent writing. I've got ideas and passion and you'll see them soon. and read them soon.

count your breaths.
fall in love.
breath.
believe.

be happy.